Suppressed

Body, Mind, Spirit...
love, hope, joy...
pain, hurt, devastation at the lost of you
swallow it hard..
put on a hard face..
take care of your things
don't let one tear shed
showing is not allowed here
your absents is noticed..
your life remembered..
a life that i said you "Lived"

crumbled down to nothing
a life spent waiting
for anticipation.. of one small person..
hand in hand and a few steps
a smile that beamed in your eyes..

2 years is all you had...
a body bound to fail
pushed away in denial of life to leave
the pain to great...

responsibilities thrust upon me
no time to grieve
no time to spare..
hurry hurry.. make it right
make it good..
speak out loud now time to go

all goes well my heart hardened
a tear falls..
to the ground
ashes to ashes
never to see again

5 years past
not a tear till today
streaming down... down...
the tears stream...
flowing down... down...

heart full of pain
as the memory of you
flows through my brain...
will it stop..
plug it back again..
pushed it away..
then bring it back..
Pain